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Psychotic_Enigma
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Name: Tessa
Country: United States
State: Wisconsin
Metro: Eau Claire
Birthday: 7/12/1900
Gender: Female
Interests: Shaking things up. Blowing things up. Poking and prodding until you finally snap. Going for random walks. Smacking complete strangers asses then when they turn around, put on this coy, innocent routine. Putting on my headphones full blast and start screaming along to the music while headbanging and dancing in the middle of a busy place. Acting dramatic infront of everyone. Bands such as Zao, S.O.A.D, 7, Avenged Sevenfold, Velvet Acid Christ, Cradle Of Filth. Bands of that nature. And who can forget Peal Jam and Nirvana? Honestly. Kinky shit. Whips, handcuffs, spikes,chains. Who doesn love that stuff!? -coughTinalovesitcough.- So yeah.
Expertise: Screwing relationships up. Giving advice on how to deal with hardships. How to screw around with your mind. Giving a false illusion that i'm actually interested in you. I'm just playing wit' ya.
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  ChaoticxFlare
MSN: Orspasmic.Nights@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  psychotic_gothic_enigma
Member Since:
4/21/2004
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| Its so perplexing how someones life can be affected
by the tiniest thing. In my case, its a huge thing. I found out my dad
is going to die in 3-6 months. Its true he hasnt always been there for
me but he's been making it up to me as he went along. He's been
bringing stuff over to me,Trav(my brother) and mom.I got most of his
stuff. It just hurts to know that he's never going to be there for most
of my life. He says i'll have more than enough to go to college, so
thats good, but what if I want a father? I cry myself to sleep over
it. He told me on Saturday now today he told me that he's moving
away from here. I just dont understand how this can be happening to me.
I cant survive without him. It hurts to know that he's not going to be
here when I graduate from highschool, college. He's not going to be
here for my birthday, well maybe he is. He wont be here to
walk me down the aisle. I know it mind stupid to you but it means a lot
to me for him to do that. Why in the hell am I explaining this to you?
Not like people this read anymore.
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| Hm. Wanna see me going crazy and being a crazy sexii whore at the same time?! http://photobucket.com/albums/d133/xPrettyxToyx/
Check it out. Haha. Uhh..Yeah John and i broke up. | | |
| So i'm having difficulties with Brittany. I was having a
discussion with John about our relationship when Brittany butted in and
fed him words. A) its none of her business. B) Its between
John, and me. So anyways. Prseton si supposed to be at the party
and i'm scared if he is there and i'm drunk..ya know. But oh well. I
know I wont be able to hold myself back from him if...yeah. I love him
still and it hurts. but yeah. Hmm. Not sure what to say. Counting the
days down until the party. Talking to Kyle and The Sex God. Hunm... i'm
done. Got a new voicemail thinger. its sexii call it sometime. and
orgasm while listenign to it. (-cough-Matt-cough-) >.>
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| Por que me siento de esta manera? Por que te amo todavia? Tengo un
novio mientras mas y mas pienso en el hace mas sentido en mi mente.
Estoy enamorada de ti. Pienso de el solo como un amigo cercano. Por
que? Por que le estoy haciendo esto a el y por que me estoy haciendo
esto a mi misma? Yo no comprendo esto. Odio esto. Odio todo esto. Pero
sobre todo me odio a mi por haberte hecho esto a ti. No deberia de
jugar con tus sentimientos. Es lo que siento de verdad? O es
simplemente una broma pesada? Siento esto por que no te puedo tener? Yo
podria tenerte. Se que puedo. Es solo que bajo las circunstancias no
puedo. Odio este gobierno por esto. Odio a mis padres por esto. Pero
sobre todo me odio a mi misma por haberte hecho esto a ti y a mi. Lo
amo tanto. Duele tanto cuando pienso en ello. Lo amo. Lo amo. Lo amo.
Lo que mas me impresiona es que ni una sola vez intentaste aprovecharte
de el. Ni una vez. Tubieste varias oportunidades, pero no lo hiciste.
Quiero perderme dentro de ti. Veo tus ojos y no veo mas que adoracion.
Estoy segura que si vieras dentro de los mios encontrarias lo mismo. Se
que compartimos algo. Nunca te olvidare. Nunca. (I wrote this on my own. Rawr.)
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| I'm such a retard. No one can state otherwise. I had an emotional
breakdown that day. I wasnt thinking clearly. I still havent got
my cellphone back. Its killing me. wow. I sound like a spoiled lil
b-tch. Heh. Oh well. I havent heard from the police or my social
worker. I still have to make a statement and most likely go to
court. Poor Preston will have a record. If they think i'm going
to talk they're dead wrong. I'd rather hang myself than make him take
consequences for my actions. The law is a big piece of shit. I'm going
to assasinate Bush. Haha. Just kidding. I strongly dislike him though.
Then the f.b.i. So rawr. Anybody with me? WE SHALL UNITE!!!!!!!!!1rawr
rwarrawrrwararwararrqkwrjslkfjlsdk. Yeah. Hm.
New topic. John.18.Gorgeous.Totally adorable.Senior.Goes to my school.I
trust him with my life. Totally adorable. Oh yeah. Did I mention
totally adorable? He makes me forget about my past.I'm such a whore.
Seriously. Even Matty-kins over there agree's with me. So shall you.
New pictures. Dont feel like posting them up.
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